Saturday, May 29, 2004
the HAPPIEST day of my life..is the day that i SHOPPED TILL I DIED!! hahaha...i feel soooo happy now man! bought really nice stuff that are not too pricey! yay! i bought a dark blue top that i think is really unique(jing has the same one) [usual price: $33, now: $19.50], a dark green skirt[usual price: $39, now: $16.50], a pair of hipster jeans[$10] & sandals[usual price: $23.50, now: $5.90] don't u think i'm the greatest bargain hunter ever?! ;) and just in one day, i spent more than i ever had! maybe i'm maturing..or maybe not. ah well! whatever it is, i'm ecstatic and satisfied. WooF!! *hehe*
by the way, for two days i have been walking around TM for FIVE solid hours each day man! jing says that walking around for 20 min already burns quite a few calories..so..i must've lost some weight! (though i don't appear to have done so) this hols i shall really go exercise! then u'll see the new, fit izzy! cheers =D
illuminated. 9:22 PM
Friday, May 28, 2004
woo! well coz of the early release fr sch today, my buddy jing and i went on a TOTALLY shopping frenzy. well, window shopping to be exact. and so here i am. can't sleep coz i'm thinking of what i wanna buy. *and marvelling at my WONDERFUL taste* ;) and it all started because jing wanted to go to the washroom at TM..and we ended up walking around for like 3 hrs plus?! don't we have such amazing endurance and strength?? (geez..sounds like some ad for cars or sth)
so we're heading back down to TM tomorrow after our...GP mid yr exam(BAH. SIGH. SHUCKS. SIAN. DARN.) it's da Great Singapore Sale man! and i'm onto it. muahahahaha...BE WARNED!
illuminated. 9:37 PM
Tuesday, May 25, 2004
now i'm worked up. and to release these pent-up emotions, i'm gonna rant here. u read, u comment, but don't try to change my opinions. u can't control me.
just because you don't like someone's actions, someone's way of speaking, someone's attitude, does it give you the justification to totally write off that person? i believe everyone is unique in their own ways. open your eyes. (okay! i SO feel like cursing and swearing here..and it's taking a lot of effort not to.) there is a HUGE difference in complaining about the person and "despising" him, and complaining about the person and accepting his flaws. nobody's perfect(i'm sure everyone knows that) and so instead of seeing how horrible the person is to you, have you not thought about YOUR own actions? and how they affect that particular individual? why be so quick to judge? think about the situation and what happened, and you realise that the person has a reason for asking that. i'm not saying that the other party may not be in the wrong at all. i think BOTH parties are in the wrong. and both are repelling instead of trying to "attract" (if you get what i mean..using the magnet analogy here) i am getting so pissed off. so sick of this. don't you think it selfish by doing such actions and not thinking of others' feelings as well? hah. what an irony.
so you feel left out. you feel like no one can understand you. who hasn't been in such a position? i definitely have. and i've realised that you can't push away the person, you have to learn to adapt to their flaws. i always say "compromise and accommodation". *Social Studies Swiss policy* and it leads to harmony!
and i've run out of steam. nothing more to say. out.
illuminated. 10:03 PM
today was a day of mishaps. (okay fine, everyday is a day of mishap in my case) well, i wanted to shoot a rubber band at jing but i ended up shooting it at myself. how dumb can i get?! and while ordering dinner at the food court at Tampines Int. i ordered black pepper DEER MEAT. ugh? luckily i realised my mistake in time..whew! and i recommend the black pepper beef in the little wok thingy at that place..it rawks! =P okay..i think i did more dumb stuff than this..but it has slipped my memory..ah well!
i gotta retake my NAPFA..i missed getting the silver(AND not retaking it) by just ONE point. ONE stupid, measly, lousy point. and now i gotta exert myself all over again. sigh!
they say to always trust your intuition. true, it may sometimes be wrong, but most of the time it turns out correct. and i think i'm one who has pretty good intuition. so just wanna say to go with your gut feeling! you may not be wrong =D
illuminated. 9:08 PM
Friday, May 07, 2004
they say when you don't want to be like someone, u end up becoming MORE like that particular person. an example would be your parents. No youth wants to end up like their parents (but if their parents r suave/elegant/rich etc that would be something else =X) but in the end, when we are parents ourselves, who are we most like? THEM. anyway..i've learnt a lot about this concept. reflecting on my past actions have really made me realise: yeah, i'm just like those girls. *guess only some of you know what i mean* and i really, absolutely don't want to be like them. yet, all that happened..it only shows i am as dumb n stupid as them! geez. i carried out the same actions they did. and i condemned them. for being so naive, so needy, such LOSERS. and in doing so, i am condemning MYSELF. for what more was i than just their exact mirror reflection?
it's a sad reality that i still can't bring myself to face. but one thing's different: i've decided to turn my back.
-with or without you, life still WILL go on-
illuminated. 10:35 PM
Tuesday, May 04, 2004
i feel v v weird. and i don't know how to describe what i'm feeling right now. in the past two days i've learnt much about some stuff..mainly about people i guess. and i'm not sure if i really did want to know about it..now i feel, think, and see things slightly differently. and i can't stand it. (DON'T ask me to sit.) what's wrong with me man..i always feel this way..this all happened before. hmmm..deja vu! so anyway..i just hope this jumbled up emotions all will dissipate soon..ignorance really IS bliss.
illuminated. 10:28 PM
Sunday, May 02, 2004
weell..today my friend came to my church. yay~! and i think i learnt a lot this sunday. how singing is not the only form of worship unto God, but it is a PART of worship. if it was the ONLY form of worship, then something would be terribly wrong. and how we must sing well so we can minister to others better and not distract others. all this really is impactful since i'm in the church choir. i am also truly encouraged by my friend's desire to want to start doing QT regularly again. i've also been really slack in doing QT..and i'll change that from now on. so, all in all, just wanna thank God for giving me such a fruitful Sunday in church..i realise how blessed i am to be able to spend one whole day in church every week, serving God and hearing the sermons.
*One day in the house of God is better than a thousand days in the world*
illuminated. 10:32 PM
i'm so in shopping mode now!! excessiveness has never been an issue...till now. sheesh...think i've really changed a lot since coming into MJC. change is inevitable, but whether it is good or bad is another matter altogether. ah well! metamorphosis.
went to a concert at church on Friday: Abraham Laboriel & Friends. my ears have never-i repeat NEVER- heard such wonderful music before..and how i enjoyed it! the drum beat..the twang of the electric guitar..the twinkling piano sounds..the world-class bassist and his superb playing..WOW. too bad we asians are too conservative n mostly sat down..though i wanted to stand up but my friend said ppl wld think i'm mad. *sigh* it was a truly great time..worshipping God and all =)
and i'm truly blessed to have such great friends and family as well..woo~ rawk on!
illuminated. 12:07 AM
izzabelle/izzy/bel.