Friday, August 26, 2005
CRUSADE!
well just had a great time at Crossroads- weekly campus crusade meeting. met up with the BelovedBabes- enting,andrea,doreen. (missing edlyn & shiying). seriously i'm just amazingly grateful to God for giving me such sisters like this. i never thought i would find such a group of gurls who love God and are so warm & friendly. and to think we still keep in contact even after the camp! so kewl. =D
today they talked about spiritual burnout. using a passage from 1 Kings, where Jezebel wanted to kill Elijah and he was so afraid he ran away and went into the desert. then he travelled forty days & nights to Mount Horeb, the same mountain where God appeared to Moses. and there God told Elijah to go on & continue his mission. *very summarized version* what's there to note is that even when Elijah's faith was challenged & he was afraid for his life he went to Mt. Horeb. The Bible doesn't state so but in going there, we know Elijah went there to seek God. How many of us will actually do this; when we face problems in life & questions about our faith. Also, God told Elijah to continue what he was doing before, assuring him that what he was doing is not wrong.
I can really see God's hand moving in my life now. i really praise God & thank Him for it. some situations i encountered recently have this issue about the devil's deceptions and his ways of doing so. just making me think more about what the devil uses to grab our attention, turn us away from God. and now, you know i can really say i am growing more in Him. in the past, i cannot answer questions about stuff eg. tongues, devil's means. true i don't know every single thing but somehow God gave me the answers to respond. and He's really sustaining me throughout this week, especially on wed night where i woke up on thu morning refreshed & was not that late in meeting a friend(normally i'm extremely late). i think that could only have been b'coz i spent quality time with God. i've been having sporadic QTs..just too tired with loong days in school. but yep..God's good. but i want more, more of You Lord. i want to desire more to know Him personally. what will get you into heaven is not good works, not how faithfully you attend church, not how nicely you sing christian songs, but your relationship with Jesus. when i can call him my Friend, that's when i know Jesus.
oh yesh i'm taking up the position of Admin. 2I/C for the pre-speedlight camp. it's definitely a challenge. i was quite hesitant to take it up..i mean it involves a lot of work & planning. but since i do not believe in coincidence and i was approached to help out in the committee, i'm plunging in and trusting in God that he will carry me through. =)
"when you seek me, you shall find me, if you seek me with all your heart."
illuminated. 12:46 AM
Thursday, August 25, 2005
nerdic.
OED Definition: a condition of being too absorbed in one's studies.
noun: nerd.
adjective: nerding
examples: I was a nerd with thick glases in secondary school. I had been nerding around when the teacher called me to meet him. i am nerdic in my current field of study.
i can hardly type a complete sentence that illustrates what i want to convey for my Literature assignment. yet i've been stuck here in the library since 3(it's been 3 looong hours!). hence the term "nerdic" (coined by yours truly). fine, say it's a result of me being friendless that books are my only companions.
i dislike heart of darkness. grrrr.
illuminated. 5:21 PM
Sunday, August 21, 2005
hear wedding bells for the birthday girl anyone? ;)
illuminated. 12:17 AM
absolutely hilarious this pic! a parody on Desperate Housewives.also, adams tempting their eve. wahaha.
illuminated. 12:14 AM
bootiful sistas! at Fish & Co.
illuminated. 12:12 AM
Saturday, August 20, 2005
`catharsis --
tiring week: slept late many days and had to wake up early to get to class. zzz. but today i replenished my beauty sleep. finally!
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met up with an ex-colleague. i worked with him when i was in Sec4. and i used to think he was really huge(he's quite tall), till when i met him again i realised..he's not as big as i remember him to be. all a matter of perspective i say. it is not how he had changed but how i had changed in my outlook, my thinking. interesting.
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supposed to go fer kickboxing but couldn't find the place at all! headed to have a super unhealthy dinner of chicken cutlet which was oozing oil. literally. but it was a great dinner & chat wit a gurlfriend. (:
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lessons are fun. je t'aime le francais! our current reads: Conrad's Heart of Darkness and Chaucer's The Canterbury Tales. i kept mute pretty much since school started, but in the lecture for Cinematic Pleasures i kinda shocked myself by speaking out. glad, though, that the prof. agreed with me.
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i can't wait to stay nearer to NTU!! gonna bunk with a friend for a day next week; totally-girl sleepover on thurs after crossroads with crusade pals! now i have an incentive to stay heh =X can't wait to pile up on fats & junk food & expoundings on life and such. wheeee.
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looking forward lots to speedlight! the choir's gonna sing all out fer God. i absolutely love the songs we're singing. it's..fun. y'know how sometimes things get to be a drag. yet God intends for us to enjoy ourselves even as we serve Him. i'm psyched for tomorrow. but i realise and i know..i need to hunger more for Him. to gain the spiritual gifts and privileges i lack. let the fire burn within me again.
illuminated. 11:38 PM
Thursday, August 18, 2005
went to watch DIM SUM DOLLIES!! on wednesday. it was really satirical and lame at some parts. like when the six hunky male dancers stripped to their pink underwear. that was just upping the sleaze factor. haha. they did a section on food court aunties, showing how singaporeans "chope" a table with a piece of tissue; a bollywood dance; mini dum sum dollies lamenting about going to primary one ; a display of the unloved singapore icons: the merlion, vanda ms joaquim, and the singapura cat; etc. hossan leong was hilarious! dressed as a woman mosttimes, and he's a genius on the piano. i was really amazed that he has such a gift. soo envious. thanks lots doug & engie! we had grreaat box seats too..woohoo.
celebrated lijia's birthday the past saturday. =D my beloved friend, leader and sista-in-christ! she was so surprised that many people turned up that she cried. soo touching. she got 21 presents..how cool is that. *i wouldn't mind 20 presents next year muahaha* anyways, i'm really glad she liked what i made for her. coz i was kinda paiseh to give it to her after she got 21 fabulous presents. but yeah, kewl. :) will post some pix later.
illuminated. 6:23 PM
Sunday, August 14, 2005
TELL THE WORLD!
speedlight rawked today :) i didn't serve and so when i stepped into the sanctuary, they were singing a praise song: "What The World Will Never Take". and i was pretty surprised & amazed when i saw people(many many) actually jumping & praising God! revival is comin. hallelujah! was just so thankful to God that speedlighters are desiring for God more; entering into the worship flow.
a friend's got free tix to Dim Sum Dollies! how exciting. but it clashes(yet again) with the NTU cell. (another thing that clashed was my kickboxing previously.) like seriously man. i really wanna watch it; it's been ages since i watched a musical. i just love being at one; the music, the stage theatrics are wonderful. just that they're too expensive and i don't wanna spend too much. what do ya think; would God hold it against you for not going to cell and instead going for some outside entertainment? to me, i put cellgroup as a priority (just that i'm always late fer it =X) but if i have a true and valid reason for missing it, then i believe God'll understand. i have two cellgroups anyway. can get lots of spiritual feeding. or am i just rationalising my choice by saying the previous statement?
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damn my parents are quarrelling again. hate hearing them rant on and on; blame and anger are divisive agents that are so subtle they invade our lives in normal everyday situations. just shut up darn it.
illuminated. 11:11 PM
Thursday, August 11, 2005
cine-mania
just went to NTU to watch some oldie movie today for my lecture. =D pretty kewl huh. and then i had NTU cell- which is now renamed harvesters. haha. so we're harvesters! not from city harvest, mind ya. but harvesters; fruit-bearers; evangelists; whatnot. i encourage lighters in NTU to come! it'll be really great to have such fellowship in school.
i stayed up to watch pleasantville on channel5 on national day too. superbly intriguing movie. depictions of racism, and the journey of self-discovery and self-awareness was played out as well. after it, i appreciate colour more. like the passionate burst of red. or vivid lush green. some things we have just taken for granted for much too long.
oh and it just reminds me. while in the canteen today in uni, shannon went, "wah he bought veterinarian food ah?" to a fellow cell-mate and i, aghast, retorted "..... its VEGETARIAN food!" but he started spouting that the sweet and sour pork=cat meat, green veggies=cowgrass and all that rot. like HUH right. hah. kays, off to do some last-minute work. bonne nuit!
the idea of missing you has resurfaced yet again. shall i ever be free..?
illuminated. 12:23 AM
Monday, August 08, 2005
Inspiration!
i shall try to master Corrinne May's song "Mr. Beasley". man i just wish there was actually such a guy wahaha. wooing me wit shakespeare, fancy car, and having such a good heart. hmmph. only in my dreams probably.
anyway french was fun! though late. oh and during literature lecture today, famous(or infamous?) blogger SPG sat next to me. was kinda..miffed you could put it. i tried to hide my name("izzy" or "isabel") that was written on my notes. you could say i was trying to distance myself away from her. she seems pretty ordinary to me though. only that she was slang-ing away on the phone to someone before lecture. haha. ah well. it's her prerogative i shan't comment.
and i maximised school resources and watched LOTR: return of the king today! saw my beloved legolas. =)) still it got cut off halfway JUST when they were gotta battle. shall watch it another day.
bonne fete nationale!
illuminated. 11:50 PM
Sunday, August 07, 2005
hello world. izzy's baackk.
well i just had a terrible week of sickness. monday & tuesday i had a fever that made me real dizzy & stuff. then my flu worsened and now it's almost gone. so yep thank God!
and today i headed to church! i think cellgroup was really cool. and enjoyable. we actually engaged in active discussion. woohoo! so glad to experience that. i mean, normally it's boring lecture-style oft-repeated topics. we need to juice up our brains a lil' sometimes. revival's comin man! i hope the worship also drew all of us closer to God. =)
and yeah school once again tomorrow. yawnnnn. i have STUPID french at 6 30pm to 8 30pm tomorrow. arghh! entire day wasted in school. and i still don't see any cute guys. but i did talk to a french exchange student guy and practiced some french on him heheh. okay okay..i'm not that boy-nutty. blergh. and anyway NTU peeps are so cheena-nified! oh help me man. and i have not talked to a single person in literature other than kit. =X guess i gotta widen my social circle. haha.
illuminated. 10:52 PM
izzabelle/izzy/bel.