Sunday, June 27, 2004

studied after church..feeling pretty drained right now. and it's just Lit. when Maths & Econs are up..geez..i'd be totally exhausted i think. anyway just thank God that i didn't fall sick at all =) nearly had the flu coz of my blocked nose n stuff. though i have insomnia(slept at 5 plus earlier) but i KNOW i will have a good sleep today so i can do well 4 tomorrow's paper! also thank Him that i managed to finish studying Lit. today..can't say the same for Maths & Econs though. =X i can't wait for this week to be over..other ppl finish their exams on thursday but i gotta stretch it out for 5 days..sigh! pray fer me u all..a little simple one will do =) thanx!

illuminated. 10:49 PM

Thursday, June 24, 2004

been studying these few days at the CC near church. today a guy came to check up on the ppl studying there to see who had not registered as members-and i didn't. luckily i was outside the room and stayed out till he left. in the end, cindy and i left and we headed to the RC under my block to study. couldn't study much though..pretty tired. but it's okay! tomorrow WILL be a fruitful day. got LOTS to study on. haiz..pretty stressed..but i know God can get me through this!

and is it the weather, us being young adolescents, or it being the hols now(though soon ending) that so many crushes and interests and the like are popping out everywhere? esp. in church. weird.

ironic that he's asked me a few times whether i'm all right/if i have any problems. little does he know he may be the "root" of it all. yet my friends don't ask me that. am i too good at making myself sound carefree and cheery in person, such that ppl around me think i am? hmm.

illuminated. 11:45 PM

Wednesday, June 16, 2004

woo~ today is hyper day for me man. for the first time in a long time i woke up at 10:30 am. kewl eh? ;) someone sent me reeeallly nice songs..i'm so happy! didn't know "All About You" was one of them..haha that song rawks! and also Michael W. Smith's "Will Be Here For You"..wow..doesn't really sound like a christian song but the lyrics are really meaningful. b00tiful man!
met up with darius for lunch at tamp. hahaha..he changed his hairstyle again. the back looks as if he juz woke up and didn't comb it. hehe..had a good time chatting..yup..haven't seen him for ages..wuz good meetin him and laughing at him again =D after that headed home, moaned on the phone while jing gushed bout KABBY(hahaha!!) and went to sleep. then i realised that my two bros are sleeping too and the house is really quiet now. woohoo! so yup..i'm here.
darius shared with me some stuff too..hmm..makes me think. this world is truly just plain hypocritical. like helloo? if you don't want me to go to your party, it's really fine u know. i haven't lost out on anything. and basically, all your aversion towards me is (i feel) unfounded. I haven't backstabbed you. I haven't instigated others to laugh at me behind my back. shouldn't I be the one to totally write you off as a "friend"? hmm. but seriously..if i ever did anything wrong to you i would really like to know. anyway..all the hate, hurt, and unforgiveness is gone now. =) whatever it is..i feel that it's really childish n stuff to go on saying such things. so..quit it. just give everyone a break. yup..izzy -out-

illuminated. 7:18 PM

Tuesday, June 15, 2004

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illuminated. 7:35 PM

Friday, June 11, 2004

back from Speedlight church camp- My Utmost For His Highest 2. and well..it RAWKED!! i still feel so "out of it" now..if you know what i mean. i'm back in da world..hmm. throughout the whole camp, i sounded like a half-strangled duck. haha..kept clearing my throat practically every minute. at least i was still able to sing during praise and worship =) thank God for making this camp possible and run smoothly..and that everyone felt God's presence and a touch from Him. one particular sermon talked about forgiveness..and it was really relevant to me. i held a lot of bitterness toward a group of ppl who had backstabbed me n stuff(way back in sec. sch) and now i've given it all back to God..feel free of my burdens now. still..i'm quite afraid of falling back to who i was before. but i pray that i won't falter or anything but will stick to my decision: to obey God not Satan. it was truly a life-changing and eye-opening experience =)

It's All About You.

illuminated. 1:38 PM

Sunday, June 06, 2004

due to the lack of people online at this time, i have nowhere else but to complain here. i was in the toilet(just washing my hands) when i felt something brush me. couldn't see anything so i continued washing my hands. then i felt something on my leg. a STUPID cockroach was on my bare skin! and i juz screamed and shook my leg and it flew off. after that, i couldn't shake the feeling of those little insect legs and bathed. how traumatised can i get? a cockroach crawled up my ARM before too, when i reached into the tissue box to take tissue. sigh. what's with me and cockroaches man. we seem to have this affinity. hope it won't last! i don't EVER wanna go through that thrice. =X

illuminated. 1:20 AM

Saturday, June 05, 2004

heyy!! i'm hyper now! went for the hillsong Festival Of Praise at Indoor Stadium earlier yesterday. and it plain rawked! sang my heart out there..and heard a really gd short & sweet message. Darlene also mentioned how the worst thing we could do is to turn our back on Jesus..and continue walking..and the best thing we could do is to run back to Him with arms wide open. and well..i know i'm slacking once again. bah. it's time to PULL UP MY SOCKS! church camp comin' up on 7th june all the way to 10th june! hooray! i'm in the group ephraim..hmm..don't think i know anyone in that tribe..ah well..always good making new friends yeah? =)
Thank God for bringing me to the stadium today, with my pals clar, jing, and lump! i'm so glad lump went down for the altar call. Heaven rejoices at the salvation of every person..don't ever think u will never be good enough..for Jesus died for all of us while we were yet sinners. truly, it is a joy seeing ur friend go for the salvation call and recite the Sinner's prayer.
=) SmiLe, GoD LoVeS yA!

illuminated. 12:49 AM