Friday, October 28, 2005
she will be loved
3am and the rain lingers softly.
feeling extremely melancholic.
this weather always does that to me.
gettin' all high from easy listening tunes-
they uplift, they make me lost in memories.
today(thursday) wuz the last day of skool!
we had a mini-halloween party in lit. class.
the lit. profs rawwkk (:
i don't have the heart to ruin this lil' day of relaxation.
my toil will start friday onwards.
slumber beckons-
.so hard to say goodbye.
illuminated. 2:59 AM
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
speechless
* french oral
it was terrible!! i was late firstly. (smack me on the head somebody) and then, when the examiner asked me in french why i was late, my mind was blank and i replied: "i am sorry!" in french of course. HAHA! i think she wanted to test me further & punish me for my tardiness..so she asked me for my TELEPHONE NUMBER! ahhh! now in french, to say the telephone number you have to do it in pairs. so my end result was: 68235511. (something like that at least) now this number is totally WAY OFF my correct telephone number! oh i just realised something..thank God i didn't attempt to say my hp number! i wouldn't even know how to start. and the examiner asked me: "is this your number?" i stared dumbly, laughed, and said: "yes". goodness me! what a blatant lie huh! i just hope she cuts me some slack. i hadn't even caught my breath when she started firing french questions at me. and lemme tell you, they were huge threatening missiles. =X
* essay results
i was in my cinematic pleasures class and the professor was handing out the essays. so my insides were churning a lil' and i had to pee and i just prayed i'd get a B at least. he had finished handing out all the essays and i still hadn't gotten mine back! when i went to him to get it, my friend mentioned that i was the first name called. (okay how blur can i get to miss my beautiful name?) and then, my prof smiled & handed me the paper...
and i got an A+.
isn't that just stupendously wonderfully amazingly exhilaratingly great?! i couldn't believe my eyes. i still can't. but i dunno..i don't think i deserve it. God truly has blessed me beyond my expectations. all glory shall go to Him. i did my best & God really did the rest! (:
*a verse of encouragement to all:
Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving.
- Colossians 3:23-24
illuminated. 11:47 PM
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
you know you've got the exam stress bad...
when you actually wanna forgo an outing during the weekend to mug. seriously mug.
when you feel that there is not enough time left! (which is true. there are only 2 freaking weeks left. shucks.)
when you just simply don't feel like studying coz there's a mountain of books to digest.
when you grit your teeth together even in slumber.
when you feel like SCREAMIN' YOUR GUTS OUT! AHHH!!
shutmeup, will ya?
illuminated. 11:43 PM
monday blues
clock's gonna strike 2am soon.
today i found out that i had to RETYPE MY WHOLE ESSAY! i had'nt saved it on the computer at home or my gmail, but in my lappy. and my lappy has no microsoft office anymore because i was using the trial version at the time, so i can't access my essay! so i had to type it all out. well it's all right i guess. i could edit it better in a way.
and i woke at 3pm plus plus today. IT RAWKED! i miss sleeping till late :( i need a lot of rest somehow. hahaha.
i picked up this book of Sherlock Holmes' adventures recently. haven't read for leisure in what seems like decades. don't remind me that I HAVEN'T STARTED STUDYING!! (well effectively i reminded myself) anyways, it's great reading about this sleuth extraordinaire. observation, my dear Watson!
and i've got french ORAL exam! really pray i won't stumble or form totally broken sentences in french. haha. je suis intelligente! i can do it through Christ who strengthens me. (:
this blue rhapsody- play on, play on.
illuminated. 1:48 AM
Saturday, October 22, 2005
time flies...
i've got a B- for my first ever essay in uni!
now you ask: is that a good thing or a bad thing?
i don't know actually; it's good that i at least got a B grade, but i seriously dislike the 'minus' sign there. hrrmph.
i wonder why some of the guys in lit. can get As. i mean, isn't army supposed to be totally mind-numbing and physically stimulating only (as opposed to intellectually stimulating)? or maybe all those unused brain cells are rejoicing at being put to use once again. haha!
anyways, it's just terrible to sit with guys talking about army. all that army lingo, and all that reminiscing about push-ups and dumb stories and jungle camps. you just zonk out. and this army talk NEVER dies down! no matter whether you're still in army or you've ORD-ed (see, even i know now what it means) or you've not been in reservist for eons, army talk is what bonds "men".
as if those little two tiny years of their existence spent in the army defines them and pulls them back from the present as well.
ah, nostalgia..
which is what i felt today as we celebrated apple & lump's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! =D for all the jc fun times and countless whines and pigging-out.
and now, i shall leave to partake of my home-made banana split with chocolate ice cream!
bonne nuit (:
illuminated. 1:29 AM
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
the sorry life of a uni student.
i have JUST finished writing my essay at 2:30am!
but i feel energetic. at this unearthly hour.
i wrote a heck lotta pages: seven to be exact. what a whopper of a paper.
whopper: makes me think of burger king.
i only JUST had a small plate of rice, eggs & fish for my dinner!
i'm ravenous. my stomach will growl like crazy in french tomorrow morning.
which reminds me: that i'll probably be hugely unable to wake up.
but wait, God still works miracles!
so thankful & glad i finished my essay.
my grade? quite uncertain. but i've done my best. that's all that matters.
He will do the rest.
time to troop to bed to herald the start of a new day!
gooood early morning to all & have a blessed week!
illuminated. 2:40 AM
Saturday, October 15, 2005
these words unspoken.
my essay is due on 18th Oct instead of 19th Oct! ahh!! and it counts fer 50% of my grade. terrible. :( gonna skip sch on monday to write it. zzz
went out wit the jc gurls just now! i actually dressed up to go to tampines mall. can you believe it? all fer the sake of taking nice pix. well we did actually. yays. was great catching up with all of them. apple the bimbo, jinx the lawyer, and lump who thumps. hahaha! ;)
oh and i watched Wong Kar-Wai's In the Mood for Love. it was extremely slow-moving! after watching it i just HAD to sleep. the film had an unsatisfactory ending too(to me at least). but well, least it depicted reality. instead of a typical happy ending that i'm too cynical to believe in. i mean, who believes in love at first sight, or in finding your soul-mate, or in discovering your true love anymore?
i used to. but.
it's all different now.
illuminated. 11:54 PM
Thursday, October 13, 2005
T.G.I.F. !!
-thank God it's Friday-
i haven't anticipated the end of the week this much ever since, maybe, the A levels? like, FINALLY this week is over.
this week many people around me, especially my friends, need prayer so much. i really really need to pray, for me and them and everyone else. a pure heart..that's what i long for.
don't know why i feel kinda suffocated amidst all the goings-on this week. there've been great times, sure. but maybe now the stress is finally gettin to me. i ain't slack no more! haha. i have 3 essays to submit. goodness. just thinking about it makes me get all stressed up. okay enough!
my happy stuff this week:
* last day of hostel squatting with ting. still, here's to our never-ending growing friendship (:
* meeting up with beloved babes for a while. yay. i'll not forget that "evil" blushing thingy. haha!
* a time of fellowship and renewal and discovery at NTUcell, though i felt sian & tired before.
* setting up of a cellgroup blog that everyone is enthusiastic in!
* lecture chats. =X
okay, i've successfully made meself happier i guess. haha. always look on the bright side of lifee!
have a blessed weekend all who read this (:
illuminated. 11:42 PM
Monday, October 10, 2005
my medley-
early in the morning, i will celebrate the light.
you are my song, you are the joy that brings this song to me,
coz you have made me glad, and i'll say of the Lord:
there is none like You, no one else can touch my heart like you do!
a heart that hides your word, so that sin will not come in.
i'm not satisfied, to have the form but not the power!
change my heart O God, make it ever true.
illuminated. 12:59 AM
Sunday, October 02, 2005
His banner over me is love,His love
yay! great time in church. see i'm experiencing a real rollercoaster of emotions now. sth's wrong wit me..gosh.
i once again have a sore throat. shoots. must really start drowning myself in water. arghh. after singing & chatting & laughing uproariously my voice's just gone.
i made doug drink syrup!! so evil huh. :( but yeah i didn't think he wouldd..oh well. must've been a sweet experience! ;) starbucks time was fun. maybe, just maybe, i'll really actually save up to go to sydney! ahh. i love gettin' outta stuffy fuddy-duddy singapooh.
i desperately need dark circle cream or some such stuff. recommendations anyone? people keep commenting how tired i look! sighh. i'm too much a keeper of late nights. and a loser at waking early. hahahaha =X
rights, off to pack for my last week of being a hostel squatter. well least lucky won't miss me that much now.
A bientot! -- see ya in french
illuminated. 11:39 PM
izzabelle/izzy/bel.