contemplative right now. this entry's gonna be really just a record of the thoughts in my mind.
life after As has been pretty relaxed. only somehow i've managed to fall sick thrice i think..lost my voice,had fever & flu. well that shall not prevent me fr. goin all out to serve the Lord..esp. in the pre-speedlite camp. still feeling a bit inadequate..the same few qs. pop up: am i "spiritual" enuff, will i be able to lead well...but in reading A Purpose Driven Life this portion stood out for me, where it said that ppl God used mightily did have their shortcomings..Rahab was a prostitute, Peter was impulsive,David had many family problems. yet they overcame their insecurities & allowed God to use them. powerr.
learnt in Speedlite as well..we should make provision for success not failure. this is a really impt concept i believe..ppl tend to be conditioned negatively. so yep we gotta change our attitude.
thinking bout my As..i've like really pushed it to the back of my mind..hardly thought about it. realised that this can't do..i gotta submit my results to prayer..coz i know deep down inside i'm damn scared. hey my math is baadd. grrr..so anyways juz drop a prayer 2 God 4 me yeah whoever's reading this..that i will just be satisfied wif what God has given to me.
christmas prezzies! arghh. no job, no money..so everyone has to settle 4 home-made cards. but dun worry, my creative juices will produce something that's outta this world(i hope).
and i wanna catch up with a lot of my frenz..ppl whom i've hardly spoken to for ages. sigh. amazing how life gets you going so much u lose out on connecting with the ppl who were once really close to ya.
miss the real "connection" between friends. chatting online's just a poor substitute 4 it(at times). such compromises dun feel good at all. miss the good ole innocent days in haising. miss absorbing myself in books(i mean novels, NOT studying) all day long.
darn. my entries r getting longer. right.
illuminated. 1:09 AM
femme
izzabelle/izzy/bel.
a melody that reaches to Heaven.
found to be lost in words.
solitude in late nights & alone time.
penchant for ice cream & chocolate.
adores(almost to bits) the cutest dog ever.
izzabelle/izzy/bel.