the way of escape.
i need your prayers. to my brothers and sisters in Christ, please intercede for me.
my mum asked me to go for this course about mind power & stuff a few days ago. so i thought it was pretty harmless. then i saw the email they sent, where they said the organisation was called TISAR, some thai mind control research centre. so i had some misgivings but still agreed to go to just go with my mum.
then i received some God-given counsel. my friend said that it is not of God and thailand is a mainly buddhist area. and i may be exposing myself to other spirits there. in that course you learn how to focus & channel your energy and mind power, and some can use a piece of paper to break a wooden pencil into two. sounds cool huh. but after she shared about how these may come about through the devil i believe that she is actually speaking words of wisdom.
i asked my mum about all this. and i actually got a huge scolding from my father. he went on and on about how they(parents) try to help us improve but we don't appreciate, and that my mum has already signed us(me and my younger bro) up for the course, and if i don't go i'm depriving someone of that place and my mum will lose face if we don't go. they think i'm not open minded at all. also that "staunch christians always say this cannot, that cannot" eg. yoga. and most hurting, my father said i call myself a christian but just look at my behaviour! i wanted to cry.
i most seriously contest that last statement. i mean, the world and even us christians expect us to change dramatically overnight, that we will be holy and righteous because we are christians. but that doesn't happen in an instant! God is using this life of ours on earth to change us bit by bit. but of course, i admit that yes, i am not perfect and i have my flaws that may be pretty obvious, such as being easily irritated. i dunno if this is persecution, but well, it stings. especially coming from parents.
so my friend found the TISAR website and a portion of it goes:
"in order to access greater mind power you must be prepared to change the way you think.
If you want to hold on to old belief systems and religious mindsets then I cannot help you."
when i saw that, i realised that this whole course thing is really not of God. yes, i'm sure it will help me to improve and expand my subconscious level in some way, but is it the right way of doing so? i believe not. Jesus said He is the way, the truth and the life. we humans can use all sorts of methods possible to obtain great success, deeper level of thinking, but where does it all head to? our own self-glory or self-empowerment and a sense of fulfilment in life. But Jesus does not call for that; He calls for a deeper level of communicating with Him and loving Him and then we shall have abundant life, and have it to the full.
i pray for God's protection upon me, my brother and my mum as we go tomorrow. i am gonna step out after registering man. but my brother is still young & impressionable. really am quite worried about him. i mean, what if he gets absorbed into these stuff. i'm a bit scared too of what i may face or feel. but God has said that we shall not have a spirit of fear, but of power, of love, and of a sound mind. and also He that is in me is greater than he that is in the world. i really claim all these promises now. thanks for praying and i'll blog about my experience there tomorrow.
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