sometimes what i choose leaves much to be questioned. you know you're somehow not "doing the 'right' thing" and that things should not be in such a compromising bind, but yet they are.

so, now what- forge on ahead doing what you really want to do, or to do the 'politically' correct thing?

when i made that split-second decision to continue on with the original plan and not let it be disrupted by this new event, how confident was i that it was what i should be doing? not very, but i decided i needed the former more. sometimes, i just need a rest from the whirlwind activity of life, and just relax and unwind and receive instead of give. feels like i'm giving of myself a lot(not that i'm magnamimous or prideful) but mebbe i'm stretching myself a little thin with SO MANY activities & things i have to do i just don't know the reason behind the doing anymore.

it's time for me to recharge, to rebuild my passion, and to be renewed & refreshed.