Sunday, April 30, 2006

this journey of loving You more.

awesome day in church. one day in the house of God is better than a thousand days in the world (: still, the weather's just terrible lately, dontcha think? i've been feeling hot & sticky, and as a result of these, irritable. election fever's here too; call me apathetic, but i hate politics. ugh. some friends're also struggling with their problems, and as much as i would love to help them & solve the problems, i can't. all i can do is listen & pray.

besides all this, all i'm looking forward to right now is:
5 MAY! FRIDAY! 12PM! FREEDOM!

no more boon lay. no more butt-aching train rides. no more waking up 2h before lecture starts. no more 3h lessons on shakespeare. no more everything! woohoo! =D can hardly wait.

and there are no words left to say. (:

illuminated. 11:46 PM

Thursday, April 27, 2006

points to ponder.

surrounded by Your glory
what will my heart feel?
will i dance for You Jesus
or in awe of You be still?
will i stand in Your presence
or to my knees will i fall?
will i sing "Hallelujah"
will i be able to speak at all?

many issues running through my mind now; there are questions that are so difficult to answer, a future that seems so terrible to go through. hmmm. je ne sais pas. in His time.

my 3rd exam was a total test of my endurance. i had a headache throughout- a pounding, searing headache. i started to feel feverish as well. still, i tried my best! the questions were tough and i admit i did not put in as much effort into studying for this as compared to the others. but well, it's over. one more to go!

i can only imagine...

illuminated. 12:55 AM

Saturday, April 22, 2006

not lookin' back.

all work and no play makes me a dull girl.
i'm cooped up in my house everyday, facing absolutely boring texts to plow through. but i managed to get my hands on Jodi Picoult's My Sister's Keeper. it's a pretty good read.

the somewhat disastrous event mentioned in the previous post still weighed heavily on my mind, so much so that that night i lay in bed and my eyes wouldn't shut. the past haunted me: the hurts, the bad experiences, the mistakes i had made all floated back up to the surface. then i had an epiphany of sorts- why look back and dwell so much on the past, and even engage in self-flagellation(though not in the literal sense)? i've come a long way; i know i've changed and grown. Jesus helped me in my times of trouble and need; He lifted me up and wiped the unseen tears away. He knows my thoughts, my motivations, my emotions. No other source of comfort is needed when He's here. how wonderful are His promises, and most of all, His love for me. so seek Him when there's no one else around to hear you. turn to Him when the problems grow bigger and no one understands. find rest in Him when your mind & soul is in turmoil. why Him, you may ask? because He, in his infinite love, went to die on the cross for you. actions- they speak louder than words. and so this is what i'm doing: moving forward.

illuminated. 2:06 AM

Thursday, April 20, 2006

taking a load off my chest.

i'm disappointed.

in myself.

i could've handled things better. but then again, i could've accepted what was said, taken my dues and left. why did i try so hard to keep it? hrmmph.

it's a sad day when you realize how much you've messed things up, and no matter how much you try to redeem yourself, it doesn't make you feel any better.

illuminated. 12:21 PM

Monday, April 17, 2006

The Moste Wondrous Picture of the People who Rawkk my Worlde

Act 1, Scene 1

kudos to weixiong aka drums beater aka SMOO(SMU) MAN for this excellent pic! just too bad some were MIA. ah well. the pic reminds me of being in a theatre. all the world's a stage, as shakespeare puts it. andd..today i just ended my shakespeare paper! was pretty all right. thank God that on sunday the pain in my throat was gone =D took a week for it to disappear man. from the bottom of my heart, thanks for the prayers, smses, encouragement and concern! really made me feel better. now, however, my blocked nose's come back. what's wrong wit me?! well, one week to go before my next paper, which is both a relief and a drag. adieu world!

Exeunt.

illuminated. 10:49 PM

Saturday, April 15, 2006

Goood Friday

church service was awesome (: sorry, i seem to currently be in an Americanised phase, so i'll probably say awesome a lot soon. hahaha. the songs, especially Mercy Saw Me, really sent chills through me. it was great to sit as part of the congregation, to bask in His presence & be quiet before Him. my throat still really hurts though. it's been 5 days and it hasn't let up! haiz. why must i always fall sick during exam period? mebbe i'm stressing myself up.

my first exam came & went on thursday. felt it was all right coz the texts i prepared came out (like duh, after the prof's liberal hints) and i did my research. Thank God. unfortunately, i can't say the same for Shakespeare. aarrghhh. 2 days left and i still have practically everything to cover. may the questions be mercifully easy. hahh.

sometimes, ignorance isn't bliss.

illuminated. 12:15 AM

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

hard times.

Nadine Gordimer's "The Moment the Gun Went Off" is a must-read! go search online for it or steal it or whatever. this story ain't about violence & gore, so you trigger-happy junkies can go watch war movies instead. hahh.

was absolutely sick on monday. slept practically the whole day though i wanted & tried to study. pray fer me! i still have a bad sore throat, headaches that come and go, and a slightly severe lack of focus. =X

"What's in a name? That which we call a rose
By any other word would smell as sweet."
- Shakespeare, Romeo & Juliet

illuminated. 4:28 PM

Friday, April 07, 2006

finito!

-- and so my first year in Uni ends. a pretty stressful end if i must say, because of the 3 essays i had to hand in consecutively. but it's over. like, finallyy. This semester was really...eventful. it's been tough getting the motivation & the drive back to do work after my grandma's passing. still, i thank God that i mostly got Bs this sem, with the one unwanted C and the surprising A minuses. now it's time to face the exams! only 4 papers, and the exam period stretches out over 3 weeks. hooray.

-- and the rain never stops. ever realise that it rains between the time period of 3-5pm almost every single day? my jc Lit. teacher once told the class that on Good Friday, it'll rain at 3pm. mebbe these frequent downpours foreshadow what's to come...

stir it up in our hearts- passion for Your name.

illuminated. 12:41 AM

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

enough is enough.

i just don't have any affinity with computers. got freakin pissed when my essay that i transferred from my Apple to the desktop couldn't be read in MicrosoftWord. then my father shifted the printer to my room, so i could try printing the essay from my laptop. it totally failed(as i expected). anyways, the problem was solved by converting MicrosoftWord to the pdf. format. except now i seem to have spoilt my father's thumbdrive. now he's really pissed.

and i'm really, really dead meat. haiz.

illuminated. 2:18 AM

Monday, April 03, 2006

Lord my heart cries out
"Glory to the King"
my greatest love in life
I hand You everything
Glory, Glory, I hear the angels sing


Open my ears, let me hear Your voice
to know that sweet sound
O my soul rejoice!
Glory, glory, I hear the angels sing


You're the father to the fatherless
The answer to my dreams
I see you crowned in righteousness
We cry "Glory to the King"
Comforter to the lonely
The lifter of my head
I see you veiled in majesty
We cry "Glory, Glory"
We cry, "Glory to the King!"

a song that God impressed upon me when i was down. now i'm all right. (: except i'm tearing my hair out at the mountain of essays due this week! and i have insomnia now. arghh. well, His strength is perfect. blessed week ahead all!

illuminated. 12:23 AM

femme

izzabelle/izzy/bel.
a melody that reaches to Heaven.
found to be lost in words.
solitude in late nights & alone time.
penchant for ice cream & chocolate.
adores(almost to bits) the cutest dog ever.

loved

jinx.
lumpy.
melia.
bigben.
panda.
liecong.
kenmando.
kit.
liony.
reena.
lin.
rachel.
benfoo.
douglet.
alvarn.
laureen.
enting.
drea.
peixuan.
darioos.
angie.
claressa.
missyfun.
firstrowrachel.
linda.
roy.
priscilla.
flannery.
e-james.
gabriel.
andy.
zhixian.
cuzedwin.

praise

The Lord is faithful to all His promises, and loving towards all He has made.
- Psalm 145:13

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