Saturday, April 22, 2006
not lookin' back.
all work and no play makes me a dull girl.
i'm cooped up in my house everyday, facing absolutely boring texts to plow through. but i managed to get my hands on Jodi Picoult's My Sister's Keeper. it's a pretty good read.
the somewhat disastrous event mentioned in the previous post still weighed heavily on my mind, so much so that that night i lay in bed and my eyes wouldn't shut. the past haunted me: the hurts, the bad experiences, the mistakes i had made all floated back up to the surface. then i had an epiphany of sorts- why look back and dwell so much on the past, and even engage in self-flagellation(though not in the literal sense)? i've come a long way; i know i've changed and grown. Jesus helped me in my times of trouble and need; He lifted me up and wiped the unseen tears away. He knows my thoughts, my motivations, my emotions. No other source of comfort is needed when He's here. how wonderful are His promises, and most of all, His love for me. so seek Him when there's no one else around to hear you. turn to Him when the problems grow bigger and no one understands. find rest in Him when your mind & soul is in turmoil. why Him, you may ask? because He, in his infinite love, went to die on the cross for you. actions- they speak louder than words. and so this is what i'm doing: moving forward.
illuminated. 2:06 AM
all work and no play makes me a dull girl.
izzabelle/izzy/bel.