there is a certain poignancy that exists in this space i inhabit.

can't explain it much; maybe it's the rain, or the lone train rides to & from boonlay that provide me with time for a re-evaluation of myself, my ministry, my actions, and more.

i am faced with the idea that things could've been different had i chosen the other option in the different situations i was in. yes, maybe there is a hint of regret in there. is where i am now part of God's design? i question sometimes. and i guess the answer is simply that, all the things that have happened to me so far this year were to prepare me for nothing more than to draw nearer to Him. i am a captivating work in progress, still being perfected, chided, disciplined, by my Maker.

onward to perfection.